I have taken a bit of a blog break, not really intentionally, but I have been busy and my mind has been preoccupied. There have been many times where I have wanted to sit down and write, but when I do nothing comes out. I have had many emails from readers asking how we are doing, and what our next steps are, so I thought I would fill ya'll in on what the Campbell's have been up to and what the next steps are on our infertility journey.
I think that one of the worst parts about the roller coaster of infertility are the waiting periods when you feel like you aren't doing anything productive. This is where we have been for the last 6 weeks, since we lost the baby. We had to do a "wash out" cycle, to cleanse my body of all the hormones that had been pumped in the previous month. We were then ready to start the process to the frozen embryo transfer (FET) cycle.
I went in on September 5th for the miserable and dreaded "endometrial scratching. I didn't know it but I was also scheduled for a saline sonogram that day as well...Disney World I tell you! After looking at the pictures from the saline sonogram, the Doctor saw something that wasn't right. My septum had partially grown back, the largest measurement that he got was 1.08cm. This was no where near as large as the first time however, anything 1cm or larger has to go. SERIOUSLY?!?!? I was mad!! Who has a septum that grows back...yes that would be me. Dr. Miller scheduled me quickly to have it removed. So, on September 16th with 10mg of Valium I went in for an in office Hysteroscopy. I don't think the Valium did much for me, however Monroe and the nurses beg to differ. The surgery was uncomfortable, but not miserable.
With this minor setback we are scheduled for our transfer on November 1st. For some reason I am really nervous about this. I am nervous that my body will not respond to the medications, I am nervous that our embryos will not "thaw" well, I am nervous that the same thing will happen this time that did the last time. I am trying so hard to turn this over to the Lord, but being open and honest I am really struggling, I am not sure my heart can handle more heart break.
Again, thank you for all the prayers and I will try to be better updating in the next few weeks.