Today is my first appointment and the start of our second IVF cycle. We are praying that we get further this cycle and that we get to the egg retrieval and the transfer. We are praying that my body responds to the medications, we are praying for peace.
I have very mixed emotions as we embark on this journey once again. For some reason my fears are heightened this time, I believe it is because the least expected happened last month with the cycle being called off. I was really excited to start IVF last month, this month I am dreading it a bit and believe I have more realistic expectations. My mind is totally consumed with thoughts about this cycle and what is going to happen. I keep reminding myself that the Lord has given me peace about this, and that He has this and Monroe and I are being held in His arms. I am trying to keep my head up, stay strong and not fall apart.
What is getting me through? Knowing that the Lord has the perfect child for us, waiting for the right time. I can't wait to kiss those precious cheeks, swaddle that little body, and smell that little head. We pray for you all the time baby Campbell, we love you already more than you know, we can't WAIT to meet you.
The sky off our deck last night, reminders of the Lord's promises. "Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid." John 14:27