Getting back to tonight. I seem to forget each month how the HCG trigger shot makes me unable to sleep at first, and walking not so nice zombie during the day. So, after Monroe gave me my trigger shot at 8:00pm, I took a bath and tried to relax. Didn't help!!! It's now 1:30 and all I can do is lay here and think, and yes google facts and stats about IUI. I have read them all 6 or 7 million times but you never know, google could pull out some new facts for me to obsess over.
Anyways, I have been laying here praying and just repeating Psalm 37:4 which has been my cling to verse this cycle. "Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart." I have found myself pleading to the Lord just to lead us in His direction and to guide us down the right path.
In one of my google searches tonight, I came across this song and video clip. I listened to Wes King's, Thought You'd Be Here, with tears pouring down my cheeks, it was just what I needed. We did think our child would be here by now, honestly I thought by now we would be pregnant with number two. However, the Lord has bigger plans for our family and I have total faith that He is working in our lives even when we just long to hold our child.
Here is the little video of the song that really touched me tonight. I really did not ever know I could miss someone so much that I have never met.