I first wrote about our struggle with infertility over a year ago. So much has changed in this past year and we have come so far, but still are without a precious child in our arms. We trust the the Lord's timing is better than ours and He knows the desires of our heart.
Once we moved to South Carolina, I didn't waste anytime to meet with our new RE, Dr. Miller. He is part of a group in Greenville, Fertility Center of the Carolinas, we just love him and all of the other doctors we have worked with. From our very first meeting Dr. Miller figured out things that our doctor in Dallas didn't figure out in a year. I do not have PCOS, it is a problem with my hypothalamus, my brain isn't signaling my body to produce hormones. All of what our doctor in Dallas tried wasn't going to work because he was trying to fix something that wasn't broken. To make a long story short, it was really wonderful to hear Dr. Miller explain to me what was really wrong and have all my symptoms line up perfectly. He did however say that I really needed to have surgery to remove the septum from my uterus.
Dr. Miller did my surgery in November, and this past month we finally got the clear to start trying again. This was our first injection cycle as well as our first IUI cycle. We started with Follistim injections, and then when we went for our day 12 ultrasound the medication was not doing what it should be doing. We switched to Menpour injections for the rest of the cycle. I have never been a fan of needles. Through this journey I had finally gotten to the point where I was ok with blood work and shots at the doctors office...but getting a shot from your husband who is in Finance by trade not in any way medical related is a whole different story. I was brave he was brave and we got them done. I must say that Monroe was an awesome shot giver, he was patient and sweet and I hardly felt them at all. Things looked pretty good this month and we were able to do IUI the first week of March.
I had a gut feeling that it didn't work the whole waiting period, I am not sure why I felt this way but I really did, and I was right...it didn't work. As sure as I was that this month the pregnancy test would be negative, it still really stings. My sweet friend put it perfectly she said "Katie as sure as you were it was going to be negative, you desperately wanted to be wrong" she was so right, I wanted to be proven wrong.
We are ready for what this next month brings, and as my sweet mother in law said, "its not starting over its just the next leg of the journey, even though its a hard one".
As each month passes through this journey I am amazed how the Lord is brining people into my life and how they have been an encouragement to me. I couldn't make it through this journey with out my faith, my precious husband, my family and friends. I love you all so much and thank you for the prayers, they sure are felt!